Bianca wrote:When I write a piece, I constantly clash (and in this case more than other times, obviously being a choir) with the fact that I would like it this way, but I understand that this way is difficult or impossible for those who must perform it, or perhaps that this way I go against certain rules. If then I don't immediately find a compromise that pleases me, my choice is not Solomon-like.
The extreme synthesis is that every choice has a cost, not only in life, and the composer must know how to (also) renounce. Composition at a certain level becomes a "game" of choices and renunciations, but when you are at this point, you are also quite advanced... probably you need to consolidate the work you have already done until now. Watch out because character also often plays tricks (I don't know you here, so this is a general discussion), many problems related to compositional aspects are linked to character traits. Imagine horror vacui, you meet composers who for a lifetime must use the eraser more than the pencil... if one doesn't find the strength to do it, however, they will only propose blotches... think of Liszt, how much eraser he consumed in his life, but he did it.
In my opinion, you have good ideas, part of the technique necessary to arrive at making your works credible... I remember that Geppino wrote to you in an initial workshop: "decide what to do" (or something like that). If you think about it carefully, there is a sort of indecision at the core of the writing; I don't know if it's the fear of appearing too traditional, or the ambition to be too innovative... or I wouldn't know. The fact is that music is detached from these types of factors, even if it is obviously conditioned/determined by them; everyone must find their own balance.
It happened to me once that a student brought me a microtonal piece; the violin sections had to move around certain sounds with great precision. I told him it was unperformable, and he "showed" me a score. I told him that score was performable. And he asked me: "How? It's the same passage."
Well, it turns out that on the author's score it said "solo" and he had assigned the same task to a section, which obviously cannot (even if they wanted to) divide the tone in the same way into, I won't say 16, but not even 8 parts.
Sometimes little is enough; one reads scores and tries to get the most out of them... but then, if one is lucky enough to compare with someone else (I don't know, someone with experience), one can expand their point of view or their way of seeing the subject matter. Even with the same compositional methodologies, composers have always delivered different works to history... even facing the same text. Now there are 4 more Ave Marias.
An extreme example that, translated into the choral field, can make you understand how, in the case one seeks a certain softness given by a moment in the text, one cannot use, for example, the extreme high note of a voice... even if on the synthesizer, at the end, I don't know, on the piano... or in Open Music it appears to us as the most beautiful thing in the world.
Alternatively, there is always audio processing, an area very neglected by composers linked to the world of acoustic instruments... there you can do whatever you want. The "clip" is already the finished product; the score is still just a compositional project, very detailed, but translating the discussion into architecture, once the skyscraper is built it must not collapse... otherwise, a CAD simulation is better.