I am quite frustrated, more than I would have expected when I decided to start playing the piano.
After a few months from the start of my piano lessons, even though I didn't have high expectations, never in a million years did I expect to study every passage hundreds and hundreds of times. All this breaking down/deconstruction takes away the pleasure that first drew you in.
Of course, the pleasure is great when everything comes back together, but realistically, at my age and with the time I have available, what can I hope to achieve in the next 10 years?
In the little time that I have banged my head against the wall for the umpteenth time with the usual difficult (at least for me) measures of the posthumous waltz in A minor op. 19, I thought to myself: if I spend months on an introductory piece like this, where can I go? And when I listen to a professional play it, the result is very different from mine.
Furthermore, since I got the piano, I sacrifice a lot of everything else, and it weighs on me. Of course, everyone chooses their own priorities, but I feel the weight of not being able to read anything, and generally, I do fewer things because as soon as I have a gap, I try to review.
Maybe among you there is someone who started as an adult, I don't know if you have suggestions... and forgive the vent.
The fact that you feel a difference between yourself and a professional means that you have listening skills. Compare and derive an indication from this comparison. Let the Music suggest solutions to you and never study a passage or a short phrase with "automatism" and "without Music." You will see improvements, even on very short fragments. Sometimes even emulating, imitating the Greats is useful and is a great musical school for the beginner. It is evident that as adults it is harder, precisely because we are more "structured" and we are more severe in our judgment. Letting go and allowing oneself to make mistakes sometimes does good and allows us to enter more gently, as a child would, into the apparent difficulty of the languages of the world of Art.
But no! I believe that this path must be taken. I mean the path of pleasure and musicality. Of course, in parallel with great dedication and.......clear ideas. ability, predisposition, talent. Sometimes even people who start early and study their whole lives do not achieve great results. The "game" is open and anything can happen. A friend of mine started studying the Organ a bit late and graduated. Then he wanted to get a piano diploma. We worked together on the program for this diploma when he was past 45. He passed a good exam.. not even with an "easy-peasy" program... for example, the Stravinsky sonata!!!!!! Of course, he applied himself a lot, every day... in fact, to me, who am and have been lazier than him in studying, he would say: "you, in your studies, must be like a Prussian!!!!" He is right!!!
