ttw wrote:Of course, someone who has another profession and a full stomach cannot deeply understand someone with an empty stomach and a job that doesn't pay.
I am commenting on this separately on purpose... If this sentence refers to me, I would like to explain myself. You should know that until the age of 25/26, I wanted to be a professional pianist and, at the same time, I was also doing a specialization at university to keep a lifeline in case my first and ambitious choice did not succeed.
Perhaps I didn't commit as I should have, or perhaps I misunderstood the system, or I didn't believe in it until the end, or maybe I wasn't as talented as I thought I was; but even I was, and still am today, called for concerts only when they are for charity or otherwise to play free of charge. A bit of "image"—it would be an exaggeration to call it "fame"—I achieved it this way: at many masterclasses, people unknown to me recognized me; they would come up to compliment me, sometimes for a recording, sometimes for the pianoconcerto website. I have always performed in public with great humility and happiness because, regardless, I have always loved the concert experience. Am I an histrionic type? Eccentric? Perhaps, but I feel that every time I give a concert, despite the pre-stage anxiety and the racing heartbeat, it is an experience that allows me to communicate with others, to give a reading of my pianistic intentions to those who come to listen to me, and it is certainly a moment of great growth because it places me before challenges with myself (stress management, fallibility, memory, etc...).
As age kept advancing, I had to redirect myself and dedicate myself to something else because I couldn't continue giving free concerts on my parents' shoulders. My degree certainly helped me a lot, and today I can say that I have a job that I like and is well-paid, although, as I repeat, it is always a second choice, and I say this with a bit of bitterness in my mouth. I would have wanted to work in the field of music with all my heart, even simply being a teacher in a conservatory or a music school or academy, or perhaps working in a recording studio, just to be able to work in the world of music. As you say, in Italy, our sector is constantly being pushed further and further into oblivion. This does not change the fact that even today, despite the vicissitudes, I continue to work in the field of music; for me it is a passion, and I can very well understand your state of mind. However, I do not understand your white flag. By waving a white flag, what do you think you will achieve? I believe that a little is always better than nothing. Then perhaps I will try to find out how to better monetize the fruit of my work, but by waving a white flag, where do you think you will get to?
To continue having to do with the world of music, I invent everything. The latest is the project ingegneriadelsuono.com, where I have already collected several jobs, some even quite important... Of course, it is a great sacrifice because after a day in the office writing code, fighting with databases, managing advertising campaigns, it is tiring to come home and go down to the studio, turn on another PC, and do more work, but at the same time it is rewarding because you notice with pleasure that a project you have invested so much in, which falls within your passions, is working and is bearing fruit. If you don't find the right way, you have to start looking. By giving everything up, what do you expect will happen? That magically someone will notice you?
I spent 30 years of my life living in pessimism, then I stopped and understood one thing... With pessimism, you will never get anywhere because it takes away your energy, demoralizes you, does not allow you to think or move, and above all, it does not give you a way to take the next step. From there, I began to think positively, to believe in my ideas, to dedicate the right energies to them, and my life has completely changed for the better. You cannot imagine what you can gain from positivity. If you face problems with positivity, you can only find solutions. If you face them with negativity, everything will seem like an insurmountable wall.
I think that if you are aware of having created a good product, you only need to find the way to make it known, and experience teaches me that if a product is qualitatively high and unique in its kind, it will find its success.