I'm going off-topic and responding with a century's delay, but I am only now reading marmelodies' story (and I don't know if she is still registered or if she will ever read this message), but I cannot help myself...
I too, about twenty years ago, was called to choose between music and university. There is no use telling you what the advice and "recommendations" of the people around me were... so I behaved responsibly and set aside my life as an artist for the prospect of a good job. Being a "student away from home" myself, I also traded my old upright piano (with all the memories it carried), which at the time I considered useless by now, for a small Kawai vertical that I left at my parents' house and a digital one to carry with me through the countless rented rooms I moved through in those years. And then I sold my beloved Buffet & Crampon clarinet...
Then came the boom of graduates, the crisis, and the result is that, today, I find myself with an underqualified, poorly paid, and quite precarious job, much more so than many of my old conservatory and youth orchestra companions who, one way or another, have all managed to do something with music.
Only today do I understand how much music is a reason for living, and I fight to cultivate and defend it in the few scraps of time that remain between work and family, when I often lack the physical and mental energy to be able to write or even just approach the keyboard.
If only I hadn't sold my piano! That piano generously bought for me by my father when I was a child... I know very well that in my lifetime I will never again be able to afford to buy a grand piano... Indeed, having sold that piano was the most gigantic mistake of my life...
Of course, the destiny of each of us depends, perhaps, only on ourselves, and I know very well that I am the sole person responsible for my failures.
Furthermore, I cannot and do not want to interfere in the life choices of people I don't even know... Only you know who you are and what you want...
However, if you feel even a minimum of artistic vocation and have a passion for music, I tell you: reflect carefully... perhaps any job is betterโand I mean any job with music (even a shop assistant in a musical instrument store)โthan a job we don't like or, worse, going to increase the mass, already well-nourished, of unemployed graduates.
And above all, if you haven't done so already, reflect, reflect, reflect before selling your piano...
Forgive me all again...